Ten years ago my doctor uttered the word epilepsy to me. We were glad to know what we were dealing with, but dealing has not always been easy. I look back on those six or so years I was seizure free and I long for those days again. I remain hopeful it will happen. I haven’t given up hope that a cure will one day be found for the millions of people suffering from the invisible disease.
Epilepsy and then what? Well, I discovered I wasn’t cut out for a career anymore but I was still cut out to be a wife and a mom. We set aside other goals and ambitions and small things like waking up each day with time to cook breakfast for Johnny and the boys before work and school became a joy. I love being able to hug their necks when they leave and being home and see their eyeballs when they come home in the afternoon. I will always remember the excitement Justin had when he was in the 3rd grade and we told him he didn’t have to go to after school care anymore! He was over the moon! He is a senior now and this time next year he will have left our nest. It makes my heart sing to have these years with the children. Epilepsy gifted us this time. It has given me far more than it can ever take.
Ten years later and then what? Well, I will survive the humps in the road. I can look back and see that now. This current hurdle will pass. My children are smarter from learning about this disease and being more aware of the people around them, their struggles and their victories. We survive because love always wins. When love is the heartbeat of a family, family wins.
Ten years past, and in ten more years you can ask me again. Then what? I will tell you again, I’m still winning.
Copyright © Gatewood Campbell, September 2015