It’s a Small World After All

Last Friday Shaken, Not Stirred had our first fundraising event for the Epilepsy Therapy Project at sweetFrog Frozen Yogurt. The owner’s, Steve and Sandy Anto graciously welcomed our crew and even brought in entertainment and games for the kids. Their son, my son, and another young man who works at sweetFrog play in a band together. I dreamed up the idea several months ago to have a fundraiser and have the band play. The Antos were all in from the start and with a debut date on the calendar, it was all business for the band.

I’m from the non-profit world and I did a LOT of event planning, way back when, but I’m a bit rusty these days. Thankfully, this time I had a full team of people to call on and the work was spread out with hands grasping for more. This is a special group of people and they not only see a task, they just take it and roll. We used every resource of labor we had available, including child labor. Sharon’s daughter, Addyson, spent one entire day making purple Epilepsy Awareness Ribbons. I apologize now for every hot glue gun burn and pin stick she has, but you should know we gave away every ribbon she made! We got donations from Taco Mac at Birkdale, Hickory Tavern at Birkdale, Chili’s in Huntersville, Longhorn in Huntersville and Carolina CAT and my kids assembled 150+ kids’ goodie bags to give away. Each business was overwhelmingly generous and not a single one turned me away!

I didn’t know what to expect on the day of our event. I had advertised, our team had advertised and sweetFrog had advertised, but you just never know. It’s not so much about the money, OK, well yes, it is about the money that we are raising for the Epilepsy Therapy Project, but I want people to have the chance to learn about something that is so misunderstood. For years I flew under the radar because I was afraid of being misunderstood. I was embarrassed by how I had changed and my inability to cope in certain situations. Is that going to keep me from living my life to my fullest? It shouldn’t. I’m learning that. I’m learning to embrace change. That’s what this race in Philadelphia with ETP is about; stepping out and being a face of epilepsy and brain injury. I hoped we would have the chance to share with people.

The people, oh the people, the flood of people, and the endless flood of tears and emotion that I felt all night. It’s been a week now and I still can’t wrap my mind around it. The show of support spoke volumes. Every set of eyes came to see and to learn about what we were doing. These eager faces wanted to understand. Faces from my childhood, from my husband’s days in elementary school, faces from my high school, from college, from our wedding, my mother’s former colleagues, families from our small group, our devoted RUN-agades, my TEAM in Training Coaches (including my Coach who saw me fall in LOVE with running in Nashville back in 2008), my neighbors, from our church, my Mom (also our Shaken, Not Stirred head cheerleader), my Mother-in-law and Father-in-law and people I had never met that read about us and came out to support our efforts. In a very busy big world, on a Friday night in August, all these people converged on sweetFrog Frozen Yogurt. For six straight hours, there was laughter, friendship and celebration among the hundreds of people who made time to stop by. Having grown up in a small town, I often feel the strain of the quick growth of our area. Friday night showed me, it’s a small world after all.

Friday night I met a woman and her family who came out because they read about our event online. She introduced me to her 11 yr old son. He was diagnosed with epilepsy when he was 3 years old and she was 8 months pregnant. For the last 5 years she has been working (I would say slaving is a better word) to secure a seizure dog for her son, and just last week they brought their new dog Chip home with them! I cried tears of joy with this mom as we watched her son play with Chip and I knew the immediate sense of relief she felt. This was an event worthy of celebrating!

I tried my best to share my gratitude and most importantly the reason Shaken, Not Stirred came together. My thoughts were so raw and discombobulated I couldn’t even get people’s names right. As I looked on the crowd and no words could come from my mouth and only tears could flow from my eyes, my very small world was a loving world, an understanding world, an accepting world and the silence was ok.

The night was a tremendous success! It was everything I had envisioned with music, fun and frozen yogurt all night long! I’m proud of my family for working so hard on this project with me and I’m proud of this team for running away with the vision and pressing on to raise $1000’s of dollars for the Epilepsy Therapy Project. I’m thankful for the generosity of the Antos and sweetFrog Frozen Yogurt for supporting our cause.

We have already raised over $8,000 and it’s only the beginning! We got some very exciting news just today that we will be sharing soon! We are SHAKEN things up, purple style… You just wait and see!

Copyright © Gatewood Campbell, August 2012

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Shaken, Not Stirred

Shaken, Not Stirred

Philadelphia Half Marathon 11.18.12

Life is always more fun with a friend, so shouldn’t we all surround ourselves with a bunch of great friends?! I’m feeling like the luckiest girl in the world to be surrounded by a dedicated group of friends who are committed to Team Shaken, Not Stirred! We think big and Team Shaken, Not Stirred has set our sights on raising $10,000 for the Epilepsy Therapy Project! We need your help to make that happen! If you want to know why this is important, keep reading more of my blog. If you want to learn more about the Epilepsy Therapy Project visit www.Epilepsy.com.

Donating to ETP and supporting Shaken, Not Stirred is super simple, just click this link https://epilepsytherapyproject.myetap.org/fundraiser/2012PHLMarathon/team.do?participationRef=3917.0.251389978 and you can select to sponsor any runner or make a general donation to sponsor the team.

Thank you for taking the time to read about my journey and more importantly for supporting  Team Shaken, Not Stirred

Gatewood Campbell

 

Finally Running For Me

Shaken, Not Stirred!

 2012 TEAM Epilepsy Therapy Project 

Philadelphia Half Marathon 11.18.12

I used to run because my life felt like it was spinning out of control and I needed an escape. Now I’m running because I will not allow my life to spin anymore. I was shaken, and now I will not be stirred!

I was diagnosed with Epilepsy in 2005 caused by a Mild Traumatic Brain Injury earlier that year. I was only 32 years old, married ten years, with two sons, ages 7 and 2, and I was working full time. Our world was rocked in ways we could not have predicted. Seven years later, my fingertips can still recall the sharpness of the eleven life changing stitches hidden by my hair. I sat in a staff meeting unable to comprehend anything that was being said and worried that my life would never be the same. I was partially correct. I was definitely shaken!

I am still a wife and I am still a mom. I am no longer employed but instead focus my time and attention with those that I love. My days are filled with my family, including my 96 year old grandmother, with whom I spend several days each week helping age gracefully, and ensuring she has her afternoon cocktail when she chooses (a Martini, of course). I have been seen by more doctors than I can count on my extremities, been connected to enough wires to rewire our home three times over and weaned on and off drugs more times than the Octomom weaned children off bottles.  After my initial diagnosis, months of cognitive rehabilitation and some difficult trial and error with medicine, we eventually found the right concoction. With the exception of a few minor adjustments I was fortunate to have about four years with very few problems. For a while, I was not shaken and not stirred.

My world started spinning again last spring when I began having breakthrough seizures. It took me several weeks, and several seizures, to realize what was happening. I had become so accustomed to having controlled epilepsy, it never occurred to me that the day would come that medicine would fail to stop my seizures. I have tried four new drugs, all of which have serious side effects. We settled on the one with the least offensive side effects that still effectively controls seizures. I’m learning to grow comfortable with the fact that treating epilepsy will affect many parts of my daily life and it’s important that I remain vigilant. I have been shaken, and I have realized some valuable lessons.

Epilepsy is scary and confusing. Nearly 3 million Americans suffer from seizures, yet most people don’t even know the simple first aid steps to help a person having a seizure. I am blessed to be among those with epilepsy that can be controlled with drugs. I can help those that are not able to speak up; for the exhausted parents tending to their young child stricken with epilepsy and the variety of complications it brings, for the single adult trying to manage epilepsy and a job but unable to drive a car, for the teenager afraid the next seizure will happen in the school cafeteria or in English class, or for the young mom who just wants family life to be normal again. I am an advocate for epilepsy.

Combining my epilepsy advocacy and my passion for the pavement, I have formed Team Shaken, Not Stirred! We are running the Philadelphia Half Marathon on November 18th to benefit the Epilepsy Therapy Project! Seven of my running buddies have joined Shaken, Not Stirred and together we are setting big goals to raise big money and big awareness for the Epilepsy Therapy Project!

Please join me in this very personal labor of love by making a donation to sponsor me or to sponsor Team Shaken, Not Stirred. I am still in the process of changing drugs now, but that is not going to change my focus. While I am training for this race I will be in our community sharing epilepsy education and awareness. Change will happen when people are aware and I am certainly willing to speak up.

To donate (just like my children already have)  just click this link or copy it to your browser and click the “Sponsor Me” icon. https://epilepsytherapyproject.myetap.org/fundraiser/2012PHLMarathon/individual.do?participationRef=3917.0.251389979 .

I’m deeply grateful to my family and countless friends who have given me support in so many ways and especially this last year. Thank you for loving me when it has been hard to love me, for holding my hand when it would have been easier to let go and for listening when I didn’t make sense.  Thank you for letting me know it’s ok to be me even when I’m still not sure who I am. Most of all, thank you for giving me hope for an easier tomorrow.  A bold new journey is beginning and I’m thankful to be Shaken, Not Stirred!

Cheers!

Gatewood

Shaken, Not Stirred

When I was pregnant I read “What to Expect When You’re Expecting”.  People offered advice, whether I wanted it or not. Guess what?  There isn’t a book called “What to Expect When You Have Epilepsy”.  That might have been helpful for me, or maybe not. It might have scared me, or maybe I would have been better prepared.

I was cruising along just fine when epilepsy hit me right on target (pun intended) and distracted me from my very organized, multitasked and planned out life. For 7 years I’ve been adjusting to the changes epilepsy brought to my life. The first couple of years certainly weren’t easy breezy, but it’s all kind of a big blur to me now. I remember lots of doctors, pills, post it notes and catching rides with people. After I realized I couldn’t juggle work and epilepsy, and left the 9 to never-ending grind, I had very few problems for about 4 years. I had regular checkups with my neurologist and just routine blood work to make sure my medication levels were where they needed to be. I felt good. I couldn’t multitask but I could plan and organize enough again. Life was good.

Last Spring things slowly began to change and it caught me off guard.  I was not prepared for things to change.  My medicine quit working and I was having breakthrough seizures. The last year has been a learning experience. Those 4 good years gave me a false security that I had this thing licked. Don’t get me wrong, I believe I can have this thing licked, but I’m not there yet. Over the last year I have spent every month weaning on or off multiple anti-seizure meds in search of the lesser of the evils. It’s the great hunt for seizure control versus manageable side effects. Ask my family, it’s a pleasure to experience. One did a great job controlling the seizures but made me want to crawl out of my skin and I couldn’t sleep at all. Another controlled seizures really well, but it caused me to pretty much wake up without any patience or filter for appropriate speech (and pretty much tell off anyone I saw). That was a really bad bad medicine. Another one made me slur my speech, delay my word retrieval, limit concentration and pretty much screw up all of my processing skills. I’m still suffering the effects of that one. Another one gave me the shakes. My current drug of choice upsets my stomach and I have to time my meals exactly to limit the nausea. Some days I can’t fight the nausea, even with food, and I just have to stay in bed. The medicine makes me sleepy and I need a nap to get through each day. I get dizzy moving from a seated position to a standing position. My gums bleed and stay swollen and are sometimes so painful it’s hard to eat.  I have lost some taste and appetite. My hair thins a little more each day. The blotchy deep purple in my hands and feet is another nice free bonus I guess. And this is the medicine I chose, because the others were worse.

I am not complaining, I am explaining. I count myself among the fortunate patients with epilepsy. Mine is controlled with medication. Although, clearly it’s not the perfect medication. Epilepsy is a disorder in my brain but in order for it to be controlled, I basically have to surrender the rest of my body to medication. Well, that’s just not good enough for me, not long-term anyway. I need more options, we all need more options and I need to find a way to make that happen. I’ve spent the last year researching and networking with others in the epilepsy community and I learned about The Epilepsy Therapy Project. I am thrilled to combine my love of running with the opportunity to raise money for a deeply personal cause.

I have formed Team SHAKEN, NOT STIRRED to run the Philadelphia Half Marathon on Sunday, November 18th and raise $3,000 for The Epilepsy Therapy Project!  I already have one recruit! Sharon McGowan has signed on to Shaken, Not Stirred, which seems appropriate since she is one of the few people who knew me well before all this and has been by my side through it all!

Click this link to visit our own TEAM SHAKEN, NOT STIRRED page to donate, to join our team and to learn more about The Epilepsy Therapy Project. https://epilepsytherapyproject.myetap.org/fundraiser/2012PHLMarathon/team.do?participationRef=3917.0.251389978

I hope to use my involvement with this project to spread awareness and education about epilepsy while I prepare for the race. I’m just beginning this project and my brain is still fried, though over-easy, from the variety of  drugs I have been on, and I’m still weaning off another medicine now. There will be lots more information and updates to come. This is a very exciting opportunity for our family to get involved with the epilepsy community. My hope is that something I do will help someone else be better prepared or perhaps need not be prepared at all.

Copyright © Gatewood Campbell, May 2012